Happy Friday!!! First off, I want to apologize for not posting for almost 2 months. This most recent session of college was undoubtedly the hardest for me to adjust to. I started my first job so I had to learn to juggle that with my 3 classes (9 credit hours for this session). I had to deal with the “winter blues” that definitely made itself present in my life. I was dealing with the grief of reaching the 1 year mark of my dad’s passing. Let’s just say I’m very thankful I’ve made it to spring break– I’m in definite need of a break.
All negatives aside, I feel like I’ve really grown this session. It was definitely very fulfilling and eye opening for me. I accepted Christ into my heart and I’ve made some realizations that needed to be made in my life and I’m trying to run with them. I am trying to turn to God a lot more and to live my life out as kindly and as humble as I can. It’s definitely not the easiest thing to do when I’ve spent so much time focusing on my anger, sadness, self-contempt, bitterness, etc. I’ve been feeding into the feelings that Satan wants me to feed into. He wants me to fail. However, I’ve been trying to run from those feelings into God’s arms. He has shown me that He cares for me. He has given me healing from things that I can only credit Him for and I’m extremely grateful and blessed.
I ended one of my classes this session with a C+. As an A/B student, this was devastating as all get-out at first, but as time went on, I felt myself feeling more at ease with this grade. A C+ is not the end of the world and there are bigger things I need to focus on or worry about. I need to use this C+ as a lesson; grades do not define who I am nor will they ever define who I am. I can use this as fuel for the next session and just keep moving forward. I will not let it get me down. It’s not like I didn’t pass the class. I worked my butt off to get a good enough grade on my final to achieve that final grade in the class and I should just be proud of myself for that. I am also thankful to God for allowing my eyes to open up to the fact that this C+ does not affect my worth to Him.
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago. –Ephesians 2:10, NLT
I want each and every person reading this to know that you are all God’s masterpieces. God created you for a reason, He has a purpose for every one of you, and He loves you. So, so much. I don’t want any of you to doubt His love for one second. I know that I struggle with it and that’s okay, but I just want you to know deep down that He will always care for you and love you and He will never give up on you. I hope you never give up on Him in return. It won’t be easy, but let me tell you, it’s so worth it. It’s worth feeling His presence in your life. He wants the best for you.
I hope everyone has a blessed weekend!!! I’m happy to be on spring break to spend time with my cats and my family, as well as get some much needed rest!
Until next time,