A Look Back Through High School

As the school year ends and I get ready to graduate in 3 days, I just wanted to reflect back on my time at EAU and how much it has changed my life.

I cannot imagine not going to EAU after all these years, it was the best decision I have ever made and I was the young age of 13 at the time. The faculty and students are amazing and make everyone feel welcome and a part of the EAU “family”. It was not like any other high school that I’ve seen. Our classes develop such a tight bond by the end of senior year because we don’t gain any new students throughout the years.

I have grown so much in my time at EAU and I am so appreciative of the teachers who helped that happen. Lots of encouragement and time spent to help better my skills. I will miss my teachers soooo much, but I feel so ready for college after going to EAU and earning my Associate’s degree already.

I will definitely miss all of the people, good memories, and comfort of my high school.

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Here’s to the last 4 years of high school and to what awaits in the future!

 

A Look Back on 2016

WARNING! Photo overload!! If you don’t want to scroll through a ton of photos just stop here. 🙂

Some of these photos aren’t in order because it would take forever if I tried to do that. I tried the best I could though. 2016 seemed like a really bad year overall, but looking back on all of my photos from this year, I can say that it’s been a pretty good one.

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I got my fish, Johnston.
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I lettered in Student Publications!
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Prom!
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My friend and I went to a butterfly exhibit.
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I took a picture like this the last time we had went too!
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My friend and the giant cactus.
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Memorial Day with family.
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Spontaneous trip to Indiana Dunes!
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Another from Indiana Dunes.
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Saw fireworks for the 4th at Parkview Field.
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Did some beach reading.
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It wasn’t as sunny as the previous trip but it was still nice.
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We got a new cat named Oliver!
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Went to the 3 Rivers Festival downtown!
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Saw fireworks for the end of the festival.
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We went to Cedar Point!
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My grandpa took me and my siblings to the zoo.
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I celebrated my 17th year.
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Prince passed away this year and there was a tree at the Embassy celebrating him.
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The Festival of Trees at the Embassy!
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Went to several lunches/dinners with my grandpa to keep him company (and have pie!!).
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Easter egg coloring with my siblings.
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I finally got some of my pictures printed!!
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Having my nieces, nephew, brother, and sisters over was really great.
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I read this amazing book after not reading for a while.
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Adventures with my grandpa.
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Spent lots of time with my amazing mother!
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Went to a concert for my Music Appreciation paper.
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Dissected things in Plant/Animal Biology with my best friend.
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From the butterfly exhibit.
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I love our senior class! We won the back to school bash!
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Got inducted into National Honor Society!
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Celebrated this man’s 80th year.
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They are just adorable.

Here’s to 2017!!

Who knew it’d be so hard to turn to God?

I will be the first to admit that my relationship to God has been nearly nonexistent. It just has and I have been struggling with it for almost 2 years now.

It’s been 2 years since I’ve truly started my ‘walk’ as they call it. My best friend at the time and my ex boyfriend, mostly his mother, helped me with it. My family has never been one to talk much about religion, so I wanted some support through that. However, even with their help, I am still finding it to be so hard to actually turn to God in both the good times and the bad. I constantly find myself more angry at Him than I am grateful.

That’s the problem. I have so much anger and resentment towards so many people. I hold on to grudges, I seek revenge, I get so worked up instead of listening and forgiving and understanding. I explode, I back talk, I swear, I gossip, I wallow, etc. I will admit, I will constantly think about it but I won’t actually do anything about it. Is it because it requires an effort? Is it because it’s not my ‘normal’? Is it the way I was raised? Is it just because I don’t know how to? Am I doing something wrong here? I have so many questions but nobody can answer these. These are the questions I am constantly asking myself and of others, but guess who I don’t turn to? That’s right. The One who should matter most. I’ve looked up so many Bible verses to help me at least a little bit but I’m not actually asking He Himself. I don’t go to church, I’m not praying to Him, I’m not confessing my sins to Him, I’m not praising Him, I’m not even loving Him as I should. Why should I deserve His help if I am not seeking it out on my own? Why do I deserve His help if I’m sitting around waiting for Him to make a move? It doesn’t work that way. I have realized this, but I can’t get there. Is there something wrong with me?

One of my friends asked me what a flaw of mine was so she could give me a Bible verse to prove it wrong or to help with it. I responded “anger and resentment” because lately that’s what I’ve been struggling with most.

“Be angry, and do not sin”: do not let the sun go down on your wrath, nor give place to the devil. -Ephesians 4:26-27

I also find myself turning to Psalm 46 for a lot of my problems. I look at it when I feel like God is far away or if I just need some courage at the time. It’s one of my favorites.

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God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, even though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea. -Psalm 46:1-2

I’m trying, and I’ll try harder in the coming future.

 

 

If I could be honest for just a second, here’s what I would say…

School started a month ago and I already hate it again. I was so excited in the days leading up to it, so why does this happen just a short month after?

I see myself half-assing assignments, half-assing friendships, and half-assing my life in general. What happened? Maybe it’s the work load, maybe it’s my conscience, maybe it’s just the weather outside.

I got put into some pretty tough classes this year. I have U.S. Government and First Aid and Intro to World Lit and Cultural Diversity and Spanish and Anatomy & Physiology and English 12 and finally, Finite Math. Thankfully there’s only 4 a day and a study hall in there. Blue days and gold days. Blue days and gold…every year since freshmen year I’ve been handed some pretty bad gold day classes that have a shit load of homework in them, but this year, it’s both my blue AND my gold day classes. I’m depressed and stressed and frustrated and annoyed. I have 3 English classes this year. 3x the papers, 3x the reading, ON TOP OF my other classes. I should just be thankful for block scheduling.

I need to step it up. I really, really, really do. I can’t keep half-assing everything.

You have to fight through the bad days in order to earn the best days.

And I’ll try…

S.L.

Long time, no see

First off, I would like to say hello again! It’s been a long time since I’ve written a blog post, and a lot has happened between now and then. I guess I don’t know how to word things into posts sometimes, or sometimes the thought slips, or sometimes I just plain put it off. Life happens. That is what I keep writing in my bullet journal every time I miss a chunk of time. “Life happens.” I realize looking back at my previous posts I have only posted 5 blog posts since I went on summer break…

My summer break was full and fun, boring at times, but it was a pretty good summer. To list most of the things I did, here they are (with possible pictures available):

Went to Lake of the Woods for Memorial Day

Hung out with 2 of my friends

  • Botanical Gardens
  • Coffee date
  • Kroger, TCBY, & the library

Went to several Friday night live concerts with my grandpa

Went to Indiana Dunes (2x)

  • Spontaneous trip with aunt & mom
  • Planned trip with my mom, my siblings, & my mom’s friend/her kids

Saw fireworks (2x)

  • Patriotic Pops concert
  • Three Rivers Festival

Went to Cedar Point

Celebrated my birthday

Adopted a new kitten (his name is Oliver and we got him on Salem’s “adoptaversary”)

Went to Zesto with my grandpa

Went to the zoo

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Babysat my nieces & nephew (& dog niece)

My summer was filled to the brim with good memories. Now I hope my last year of high school is just as great.

Talk to you soon! (I promise)

S.L.

April.

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I cannot believe it is April already. This year has been flying past and I still haven’t caught up to it yet.  I can’t believe in just over a month my junior year will be done already… and the seniors will be off going their separate ways. They’re already graduating from Vincennes this month! I can’t believe it. It’s just unbelievable. I’m basically going to be a  senior in high school come May. Wow. Never in a million years did 2017 feel so close. All throughout my schooling 2017 felt out of reach… I can’t believe it will already be my graduation year. I also go to my prom this year… April 23rd. I’ve got my dress, jewelry, ticket… I only need the shoes. It feels so real. I can’t believe it’s happening. It’s so exciting.

Peeling away from school, this Spring Break has been just what I’ve needed. It’s already Tuesday night and I just don’t want school to come yet! I am loving the sleeping in. Once Spring Break is over, the school year will fly by even faster. I will enjoy my break, thank you… haha.

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April is also Parkinson’s disease awareness month. As some of you know, my grandma had Parkinson’s disease for almost 32 years until it caught up to her this year. She was a champ :’) For those of you who don’t know what Parkinson’s disease is, it is defined by Merriam-Webster as “a chronic progressive neurological disease chiefly of later life that is linked to decreased dopamine production in the substantia nigra and is marked especially by tremor of resting muscles, rigidity, slowness of movement, impaired balance, and a shuffling gait” It truly is a heartbreaking disease to watch someone you love go through.

I also can’t believe that my sister turns the big 10 this month! Double digits! She’s as sassy as ever and she’s got a heart of gold (when she wants), and I just can’t believe she’s already going to be in the double digits. Like, woah.

Oh, and we can’t forget the amazing pictures I’ve already taken in these short 5 days in April already! ; -) By the way, the first blue sky, white clouds picture & the snow on the windshield were taken on the same day!

So hello April!

 

 

03/10/16

Lately I’ve been feeling down. I don’t know why, but life’s been dragging on. I feel like it is a mix between school life and personal life. Mainly school. I’m also having a problem with photography lately. It’s like I’ve hit a plateau. I seem to take a lot of pictures, but I end up deleting half or more of them. It sucks. I’m not sure what to do. Writing has even been a struggle. It feels like I’ve hit rock bottom. However, I found this quote and hopefully it will keep me going.

You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.

I’m not sure who the quote is from, but all I know is it is motivating and I’m hoping to keep referring back to that quote.