This Spring Break has mostly been about resting and quite literally taking a break from all the stress from school. So far my family has gone out to see the new Beauty and the Beast movie in the actual movie theater and I painted my room my favorite color!!! It’s been great, but I don’t want to go back to school!
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“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted” Matthew 5:4
I am so sorry for being absent for the past month. It has been a long month indeed. I last wrote a post about Christmas and how great of a holiday it was. Oh, it was. And it was a great New Years with my mom watching movies and drinking sparkling cider. We toasted and rung in the new year with the ball drop, everyone sending “Happy New Years!!!” texts. It was a very happy time.
Our world went spiraling downwards on Wednesday, January 11th when my mom came home and told me that my dad was dead. Those two words that she said to me did not sound real in my ears. “Daddy’s dead”. No. He can’t be. I cried and cried. As rocky as my relationship was with him, I loved him. I still love him.
He’s not going to be there to see me graduate. He’s not going to be at my wedding. He’s not going to see my children. He’s going to miss out on so much. And that hurts.
I need prayers for comfort and healing. Even after two and a half weeks I’m still in shock about him being gone. He’s really gone. I’m never going to hear him say “I love you” or get a hug from him ever again. I’m never going to have him text me telling me about the sunset that night again. He’s gone and it breaks my heart. Nothing can ever prepare you for that news. Nothing can.
I miss you daddy.
This year the holidays were a little bit harder without my grandma here with us for our annual Christmas Eve get-together at their house, but through & through it was a very good holiday filled with laughs and good memories.
On the night before Christmas Eve we made Christmas cookies and listened to Disney songs and watched YouTube videos for an hour or more until 1am.
On Christmas Eve my mom & siblings & I all got together before we went to our grandparent’s house and watched old Christmas videos. First we saw some from my mom’s time (1994-96 I believe) then we watched some from my childhood (2002-06). I am so grateful for those videos. I got to see both of my late grandmothers again and hear their voices and see their love. I miss them both.
Then yesterday morning we opened gifts from my mom and watched A Christmas Story and shared laughs and ate cinnamon rolls for breakfast. We then went to my dad’s house and opened gifts from him & his girlfriend which was so sweet of them. We had tacos for dinner and birthday cake for Jesus (complete with candles and singing HBD to him). It’s been a pretty good holiday.
God bless all of you and I hope those of you who celebrate this holiday had a good one!
“For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6
Today I was able to finally get the rest I’ve been needing this past week. I slept in well past noon, and it felt great. This past week I’ve been exhausted, both mentally & physically, and have been having a hard time focusing on my classes. While I didn’t do any schoolwork today, I did take the time and just rested. We also had our first fire in the fireplace of the season tonight, with Christmas music playing. It was really cozy with all the Christmas lights. I am so thankful.
My grandpa took me and my siblings to the zoo the Friday before school started and I never got to make a post about it! I took so many wonderful pictures! I hope you enjoy seeing these (-:
Great white pelican
California sea lion
Yesterday afternoon my mom sends me a text saying “hey I’m considering taking you to the dunes tomorrow since it’s going to be nice out” Um yes please?!?!?! A day at the beach without my little siblings? That’s like a no brainer. So we planned the outing and brought my aunt along with us so it would be more fun. It was an amazing day for the beach! Sunny and beautiful, and the lake wasn’t too cold! It was perfect.
I climbed up one of the dunes to take pictures of the sand and the grass growing around it.
The view from that dune: breathtaking.
Some pictures of the lake from the beach.
I always love the sound of the waves crashing against the shore…